|Why am I so excited about making a dick of myself again?
||[Jan. 8th, 2016|12:11 am]
Teachers open the door. You enter by yourself.
Uni starts again in March (I'm in australia) and I'm irrationally excited about making it obvious and awkward to my music theory teacher. As awkward as possible,so that he gets it and so that Im anxious as possible and so that my hands shake when I talk to him... Because I enjoy it.|
I don't know why, but I always get off on making it awkward with people I can't have. Does anyone else have this problem?
My last day at uni in October, I showed up dressed up more than usual and he completely avoided me. This man is clever, he's a musician as well as a theory teacher and he can probably sense student attraction a mile away. Any normal person would disguise their attraction to the unattainable, act casual, dress casual... But my life (or at least my sex life) is so bland that I get a sick pleasure out of creating unnecessary tension that is probably one sided, on my part.
Bring on third year. Can't wait to post more.